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In my efforts to get The Temple of the Muses up and running, I accidentally broke the WordPress for it and had to remove and reinstall it.  Because Fantastico doesn’t allow me to choose names for my separate installs of WordPress, I killed the one I thought to be the install for Temple, only to see that the broken Temple install was still there.

Let me tell you, I freaked out in a BIG way.  You see, I hadn’t backed up my files, which meant that everything would have been GONE.

Fortunately, I had just removed the WordPress files that I had downloaded for this blog, so the blog wasn’t killed.  I just downloaded the WordPress files to this directory again, and everything was right in my little world again.

Oh, and the Temple of the Muses is coming along as planned, and I’m sure that you’ll be as pleased with the results as I am!

I also downloaded all of my blogs, just in case I ever manage to really kill this blog, and I’ll be doing backups regularly to ensure that I don’t lose any of my work.

You may have noticed that my posts have slowed down.  This is because a key on my keyboard has opted to die, and I’m waiting on an external  keyboard to arrive.  Stay tuned!

In some ways
I never grew up
A childlike soul
Full of enthusiasm
Soaring high above sorrow
And the realities of life

Only to be laid low
By a stone to the heart
Fired from the sling
Of one who sees no place
In the grown up world
For a childlike heart

Brought down to Earth, broken
My soul realizes its flaws
My heart longs for acceptance
So I murder my heart
Smother newborn joy
And strangle enthusiasm

I am just as others wanted me now
My wings are broken–
May I never fly again.

Once upon a time, a man wanted to get married.  He prayed to God, made offerings, and petitioned God through every faith practitioner he could find.  God finally came to him in a dream and said, “I have heard your prayers and petitions, and I am prepared to grant your request.  I have two women with good and loyal hearts in mind for you.  I must tell you, though–one is fat and ugly as a toad, but she is very wise and has a vivid imagination, and the other is thin and beautiful, but she is extremely foolish and dull.  Which will you choose?”

The man cursed God and said that he would rather die alone than choose either.

And so, God granted his wish.

Meanwhile, the intelligent and creative but fat and ugly woman went on to become a beauty of renown, and the thin and beautiful woman became quite wise and creative.  Both women were able to do this while retaining their good and loyal hearts, and both women found partners who accepted them as they were and loved them unconditionally.

And the women and their partners lived full and blessed lives, for they realized that beauty changes with the seasons, and wisdom can be gained by those who earnestly seek it, but lasting love is determined by the heart.

If you’ve visited my website, www.ladcygnet.com, you’ve noticed that I’m adding stuff as I go.  I feel kind of like I’ve moved into a bunker, and I’m chiseling away at the surrounding bedrock to create more rooms.  I hate asking for help, but it’s been so long since I’ve built a website of my own that I’m very, very rusty.  I feel something like the Tin Man in Wizard of Oz.  I’m using the free sitebuilder software that came with my webhosting package, but to be frank, I’m not sure if it’s making my objectives easier or more difficult to achieve.

While I wanted to do this all on my own, I may have to break down and let my boyfriend  (who has experience in programming and network administration and can throw together pretty nice-looking websites for work) lend me a hand in making this website do what I want it to do.  If I can execute all of my plans, it’s going to be amazing!

It’s hard on my pride to admit that I’m not as good as I once was, but if I can enlist some help to make this website a really great experience, it will be worth it!

Long ago, in a galaxy far, far away, I started blogging on Blogger.  The blog went through a few name changes until it became “Crayoning on the Walls” as a result in my exasperation over my autistic toddler deciding that walls were a better medium than the paper and coloring books that I have provided for her over the years.

This blog, unlike the other, more serious..ish blogs on here, is meant to be more lighthearted and unfocused.  I’ll laugh, I’ll cry, I’ll scream in impotent rage…and I hope you’ll join me for the ride.

I’m not used to WordPress yet, and I’m not sure if I can kidnap my old Blogger files and scoot them over here, but I’ll see about giving it a try.

I’ve started quite a few projects over my lifetime, but I’ve only finished a handful of them. I’m changing that, one day at a time.

My old, abused, workhorse of a router is dying, making it difficult to use the wired connection, much less the wireless connection. Fortunately, a new one is on the way. If all goes well, the magic that followed this wonderful router will continue with the new router.

D-Links have always served me well. I hope that if you ever need a router, you give the DIR-628 or one like it a chance. It’s been a great router for me, and if it hadn’t been through so much punishment over the years, I wouldn’t have bought a new router.

I’m a procrastinator, especially when it comes to everything. If it’s something I want to do, my tendencies towards perfectionism force me to put it off until either the deadline has passed, or it is as close to perfect as humanly possible. If it’s something I don’t want to do, I also procrastinate because I dread doing it. It’s a no-win scenario, and it’s something that I struggle with each day. Do you find yourself procrastinating? If you do, you’re certainly not alone!

I feel obligated to finish this meme, even though I hate it; ergo, since I cannot sleep, I plan to finish it, one way or another, so that I can move on to something that I find enjoyable.