Somewhere there waiteth in this world of ours
For one lone soul another lonely soul,
Each choosing each through all the weary hours
And meeting strangely at one sudden goal.
Then blend they, like green leaves with golden flowers
Into one beautiful and perfect whole;
And life’s long night is ended, and the way
Lies open onward into eternal day.
“When the Japanese mend broken objects, they aggrandize the damage by filling the cracks with gold. They believe that when something’s suffered damage and has a history it becomes more beautiful.” ~ Barbara Bloom
“Your mate may be the perfect complement who makes you feel whole, but only you can make yourself whole. The lack of wholeness isn’t the problem, so much as expecting the other person to fill in which only you can do.” ~ Elizabeth Prophet
As much as I try to get away from it, there’s just something in my soul that makes me think that there is someone out there who is meant to be with me. The reason that we are not together is because we need to heal from our brokenness before we can be who we need to be for each other.
Will it happen in this lifetime? Maybe, maybe not. I’m not sure about whether there is reincarnation (Christians believe in reincarnation after Judgment Day, though they don’t often call it such), which is, as I’ve said before, why it’s called “faith” and not “fact.”
I do know this, though: healing from the things that have broken me in the past will give my daughter and I the best possible future, regardless of whether or not there is a good, whole man who will be sharing the rest of his life with me, helping me show my daughter what a good, supportive, loving relationship looks like so that she can (I hope) avoid the same relationship mistakes I made.
It’s rough right now, and it can get pretty lonely for me, but I think the end result will be worth it.